I just took a glance at my refridgerator door, and what I saw startled me: lists upon lists of stuff I "have" to buy.

I like to keep lists because it's the best way I found to keep my thoughts organized. I keep them all in different places: my planner, my computer, and apparently, also on my fridge. I keep lists of stuff I have to do, people I have to talk to, assignments I have to turn in.

I also keep shopping lists, one for groceries and random lists for types of items (clothes) or certain stores (Target) if I know an excursion is coming up. In general, this also helps me keep track of how much stuff I'm buying, too.

The reason that I did a double-take this time, however, probably is because of the timing of the lists. I just did a food shop (thanks, Peapod, another post for later) and I just visited my parents, which means home shopping. So I shouldn't "need" anything right now. But I find myself looking at two lengthy lists and automatically thinking "ok, what else do I need to add?"

Why is this happening? Is this reaction coming from a lack of something else in my life? Am I that bored with my vacation, or that controlling about every aspect of my life?

More importantly, why am I letting myself do this?

My consumption is really starting to bother me.